A peek into the Darkness

5:35am: This actually amused me (pretty dead on too)

You are a Social Liberal (63% permissive) and an... Economic Liberal (31% permissive) You are best described as a: Democrat Link: The Politics Test on Ok Cupid

11:16pm: It disturbs me, in a kind of pathetic way, that between Kat and I a pile of 7 books that was at least 1 foot high appeared on my desk when we were answering a religion question on Paula’s live journal.

3:35pm: wow. one that is really easy for me.
at least I hope.

Ask me five questions.
Any five no matter how personal, private, or random.
I have to answer them honestly.
I have to answer them all.
In turn you post this message in your own journal
and you have to answer the questions that are asked to you.

12:59pm: This is too funny
( Too damn funny )

But PJ... won’t Sarah be jealous?

3:17pm: a good day
Looks like in spite of the sleep apnea, in the end I came out ok this semester. I took an I in one class that I was behind in (the prof. was really understanding and totally cool w/ it, I take the final in Sept.), but ended up w/ a B+ and B- in the others. My final class is a project that extends into the summer and I’ll get a grade whenever it is finished, but I should do ok.

It’s a relief, esp. since I was thinking I could have failed one of them. Hopefully, when all this sleep crap is ended it means I can do well. It’s nice to finally have some of the bipolar crap out of the way in my life, it’s been a long time. But this helps confirm that I am not just imagining it, but it truly is more under control.

I wish everyone else as good a day as mine is turning out to be.

8:30pm: CPAP
I figured I should update everyone on this. It looks like the technician who said that the CPAP I tried at the sleep study really helped, was sadly mistaken. Instead of helping, it actually aggravated the sleep apnea. This happens in some “special” cases where the patient’s (me) body decides that it can stop breathing because air is coming down its airway and thus everything must be ok and it doesn’t need to breathe (i.e. is a dipshit).

The good news is that there is a treatment. There is a machine called a Bi-PAP that varies the pressure it provides based on when the person is breathing in or breathing out. The doctor said that it has worked in almost every case she’s seen like mine. But it is, of course, more expensive (no duh!) and this the insurance company makes people jump through hoops to get it. So... it’s back to a sleep study for me! wheeee! and then two weeks to get it analyzed. But, if that works, I can order the machine and get it about a week later.

So, here’s hoping. I just wanted to let everyone know what is going on, since I mentioned it above.

Take care.

3:18pm: well... it appears to have worked
Well... the last post worked and I like this client, so I guess I must follow through.

It’s been a long week. Kat has been stressing a lot of finals and I have been trying to take care of her as best I can. It’s tough because sometimes I really have no idea what to do. I did make her call her doctor and that helped a lot. Because of her family medical history, she is very likely to at some point develop anxiety/depression. Added to my bipolar, that will make life interesting. But at least they are treatable.

Ever since I got on the right med. I’ve actually been doing, well... “normal” on the emotional front. Now if the damn doc would get me a CPAP and take care of this sleep apnea, I would be good to go. CPAP (for those who don’t know) is a breathing mask that fits over your nose at night and blows a constant air pressure down it to keep your airways open so you don’t stop breathing at night (a not fun thing, and a thing that makes you need 12 hours sleep to still feel tired all the time). But, there is hope, the appt. where the doctor should order it is tom. Just in time for the end of finals I might add, even though I went to them in January. I hate the medical system!

Ok, well, what else? Two finals down, one to go. This should be the easiest and it is the class I am doing the best in. Josh Gerson and I are meeting tonight to study and then I get to tutor him on using his linux box :-). After the final I need to figure out if/when I am going to do this end of the year party thing for DnD group/other friends.

Part of me really wants this week to end, and another part doesn’t. Once it is over I need to worry about whether I am going to take a class over the summer (CHEM 101/53), work (which is really stressing me out), scheduling time to work on a summer project w/ a guy in the distributed systems lab (DSL), scheduling going to kat’s parents house over the summer (such a joy that will be), and I’m sure there is more I am missing. And I actually want to clean the friggin apt that is driving me nuts and manage to find time to exercise and spend time with friends that I have been too busy to see for way too long.

And most of all, I would like to stop thinking about the above until my final is over!!!

Ok, enough for now. That is an update on what is going on in my life currently. Hopefully, in spite of the above, things will be better after this week. At least I will be able to see Kat w/o her being spazzy, I worry about her, and that will be a relief.

2:52pm: trying something out
I’m trying out a linux livejournal client. One thing that has stopped me from writing anything here (in addition to being busy as hell) is that the web client sucks.

So... I am trying out logjam (linux gtk+ client).

If this works as I want, I’ll use it to actually post something every-so-often :-).

2:11am: How the mighty have fallen.
Yes, even I have finally succumb to the pressure (::cough:: not being able to read friends journals) and gotten one.

I will say upfront that I am not sure how often I will write in this thing, if at all... but I will try and put something amusing up occasionally (a la ironroot).

Right now I’m just trying to finish up the semester and actually pass everything. Josh and I are working on a CSE341 project that is going to be my life for the next week. This phase is longer then the last and the last took up 1500 lines of code and 45 hours of work. For those of you not at Penn, CSE341 is a course in compilers (that thing that takes a program someone wrote in some language and one, makes sure it makes any friggin sense, and two, translates it into something that makes any sense to the computer). All-in-all a really huge, but very fun project.

I guess I’d say that I am overwhelmed in the least. It’s frustrating to not be able to see anyone or do anything because anytime you are awake you have to do work. But alas, such is life, for 4 more weeks thankfully.

Well... beyond that, I don’t know what to say. I’m very new to this whole online journal thing, and still not sure how I feel about it. But I shall give it the old “college” try :-).

Take care all.